How did it happen?? It seems like yesterday I found out I was having a boy. I cried for two days, I’m embarassed to admit. I had no IDEA what to do with boys. I wanted Emma to have a sister she could grow close to – like I have. What if I wouldn’t be a good mom to a little boy???

Josh you have been the hugest blessing ever. I could have never imagined having a boy would mean so many things. The way you have touched my life is proof that God knows what He’s doing – and He knows what is best for us.

You drive me crazy. You can be the most stubborn, strong-willed kid on earth sometimes. You break things, you jump on things,  you use things in ways I wouldn’t ever think of. And these were the things about having a boy that I was afraid of. But now, all these things only endear me to you more.  I love your sense of adventure. I love how you look at things and see possibilities…You want to know how everything works – you have SUCH a zest for learning and for life. You make me laugh.  Not just a little laugh – you get me to laugh that deep down belly laugh with tears….I love that you enjoy making others laugh and be silly.  I love that we’re the only ones in our little family that ARE silly. Sure Daddy and Emma may look at us like we’re weird sometimes…but I just love those moments we share.

You are so precious to me…such a treasure. These past five years have been a surprise, a blessing, a heartache, an “oh pLEEEASE don’t break that”…  You ARE joy. I love you “all the way to the moon and the stars in the sky.” I’ll never forget your tiny little 1-year-old voice saying that to me at bedtime. I’ll love you always. Happy 5th birthday buddy.

Love, Mom.

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